I should probably be asleep, but whatever.

Josh comes tomorrow. I'm excited! I really need to see him again, I keep feeling like I'm becoming depressed. I hate being like this, it's unlike me. I'll be a typical female and blame it on PMS.

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Wow, I haven't updated this thing since December? Seriously? Dang! I'm actually quite impressed.

I installed World of Warcraft again and made a new character (sorry, Abbey, it's another Alliance one). Andy is going to play with me on there! I'm so excited. I forgot how addicting this game was--er, is. lol

I'm going over to Andy's house tonight so we can play. Yay, nerdy date!

So whee! Christmas Eve tomorrow. I get off at noon, only an hour earlier than usual but heck, I'll take what I can get. I just don't want to spend 40+ minutes waiting to leave the mall parking lot.

My mom might have to work late tomorrow, so our Christmas Eve dinner is still up in the air. I'm kind of disappointed because I had invited Andy over for dinner but had to un-invite him. :( I really wanted to introduce my parents to Andy, too. Oh well.

Speaking of Andy, I guess I should specify who he is, lol. He's the "new guy" in my life. He's really sweet and nerdy, and polar opposite than from what I'm used to, which is good. He's so skinny! I weigh more than him. lol I don't have a picture of him on my computer; the only picture I have of us is where we're playing the Wii and my drunk ass is trying to play it on the floor. For Christmas he got me the coolest messenger bag. It says "Dumbledore's Army" on it. Ya jealous? You should be. He also got me chocolate pecan clusters (mmmm), a Harry Potter calendar, and panda and koala stuffed animals. I can't even begin to tell you how much he's helped my self-esteem. I'm so glad I decided to give him a chance. It's nice feeling wanted, I guess is what I should say.

So anyways, I'm going to eat some macaroni and cheese and watch South Park. Mmhmm.

I have a Urinary Tract Infection and it spread up to my kidneys. I've been having a lot of abdominal pain and throwing up. It really sucks. If you ever experience early signs of a UTI, seriously, GO TO THE DOCTOR! I didn't and now I'm paying for it. It totally sucks.

Maybe the cool thing to do now would be to write an entry in my long neglected Livejournal.

I'm not going to say that nothing has really happened to me since my last entry, it's been quite the opposite really. A lot of things have happened. I'm no longer engaged, I moved back home, and my dad lost his job, and the JCPenney I was transferring to decided to terminate me (wtf)--not like it matters, because my old store hired me back in a heartbeat.

But on the brighter side, I decided to go visit Ohio and see Josh, who was there for me through all the bullshit I put up with over the past three months. He listened to me cry and made me feel better, and didn't tell me to shut up when I would go on a rant about my situation. Also, I saw my cousin, Amanda, and visited my grandparents (who were very surprised to see me), and saw Jackie (another person surprised to see me), and ate at Olive Garden with Abbey (who let me become a Crip!). I had a lot of fun in Ohio. I ate a lot of puppy chow and played lots of Silent Hill Homecoming, which Josh and I beat in three days. Great game, way too short, but fun all the same.

But some things have changed since I've come back, and I don't really know how to describe how I'm feeling, nor do I want to spend the time explaining things. I always feel like I'm whining when I write about them. If you want to know how I'm feeling, I'll give you a summary: I feel anxious. Confused. Happy. Depressed. And tired.

On a lighter note, I got really freaking drunk on Halloween and I don't remember my night very well, but from what I've heard from my friends I was with, it sounded like I had a lot of fun. Also had a Wii party last Friday, where, again, I got drunk. No, this is not a pattern, my drunkeness was somewhat planned on Halloween, I didn't know I was going to get drunk on Friday.

I'm working a lot now. Lots of early mornings and now working on the weekends. It sucks heavily, but my pay has been pretty steady. Oh, by the way, I got a raise at work. Not a huge one, but I got a pay raise when I moved to Las Vegas, ans when I came back here, they kept my pay, then gave me another raise on top of that. So if you ever want a raise, transfer somewhere where the cost of living is higher than where you are, then move back!

Tomorrow is my last day at JCPenney...here in Oklahoma, anyway. I know I'll probably cry. It's funny how much I've bitched and complained about how horrible that place is and now near the end of my time there, I'm rather sad to leave. :(

Yesterday I went to my friend, Heather's, baby shower. It's so weird how it's become the norm that people my age talk about weddings, engagements, babies, etc.

It's also weird how in just the matter of days, I will no longer live with my parents, but with a boy. And another couple. But I'll be sharing a room with a boy. I'll be sharing a bathroom with a boy. I'll be sharing a closet with a boy. I'll be sharing a bed with a boy. I'll be sharing practically everything with...you guessed it, a boy! It's going to take a lot of getting used to, but I'm so excited to start this new part of my life, though it does mean leaving a lot of good friends I've made here behind. And my parents, who I'll miss so much. They're like my best friends. At least I'll have Yuki (my fat white cat).

Anyways, I hope to post pictures of my new place and all that once I get settled in Las Vegas. I probably won't be online for awhile, but what else is new, right? haha

Livejournal used to be one of my major addictions. Not an hour of my life went by (that I wasn't sleeping, of course) that I didn't frequent this website and read up on my friends' lives. And many of my friends used to write on here all the time. I know some still do, but it's nothing how like it used to be. Dwelling is retarded, though, so let's move on to the present.

My mom went to India on Friday on a business trip. She's going to be gone until Feb. 22. I miss her a lot, but I know she's going to be having the time of her life and this is quite an experience and I'm SO jealous. She's so freakin' lucky!

Things are about to change at work, and I'm a little nervous about it because I'm not sure how things are going to turn out with the new system. I'm skeptical on whether things will work out or not, but will try and remain positive.

Things between Matt and I are very awesome. We're saving now to move out and get an apartment together. It's a very surreal experience because it's like, FINALLY! Together at last. Anyone that has been or is in a long-distance relationship knows that it sucks not seeing your loved one in forever and a day.

Been trying to lose weight. Matt bought me Kinetic and it's a lot of fun, but I'm having some camera problems. I need to try and get back in shape so I can feel better about myself again. Damn you yummy food!

Oh my god, this has been the worst week ever.

A huge damn ice storm decided to tear Oklahoma (and surrounding states) a new one, caking trees with over an inch of ice, and you know what that means right? Right? Come on, guess.

No electricity and trees were falling left and right in my neighborhood, including in my backyard. It was so scary, but none fell on my house, so thank god. But what sucked the most, was that I was out of electricity for fucking FIVE days. It was hell, and it was so cold in the house. I saw my damn breath, people. It sucked, but thank god it's over with. The electricity came back on a couple hours ago, and now I am content.

The end.

So I've been working pretty much every day and it kind of sucks but hopefully my paychecks will be happy.

I had to work Black Friday 3:30am-1pm. Oh my gosh, it was so scary! People were camped outside of JCPenney in FUCKING TENTS! wtf And then when the doors opened, people were PUSHING each other to get inside. I don't even understand, we weren't having THAT great of deals. I mean, I guess we were, but not so great that I would camp out in a tent at 3 o'clock in the morning and plow my way through people. It's JCPenney, for crying out loud, go to Best Buy where you can actually get some cool stuff.

I was on register alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll day. I didn't mind so much, but I don't know if people are just stupid or if they're insulting my intelligence by trying to find loopholes in the coupon dealies we had going on.

I'm tired.